me, myself, i & a whole lot more...

i'm happy (well for now)...

i know, i'm so hard-headed but i feel so happy when i hear him on the other line... what more if i'll spend an hour or (hopefully) a day with him.

i watched when harry met sally last night-i can't help but think of him as harry-he fits harry (i'm not saying though that i fit sally, anyway). he's harry for me... and he called me today-he never fails to surprise me (he called first when i was having my late lunch, my officemate informed me about it. i texted him and asked what is it about [lately we've been talking about work]) then about 10 minutes later, he called-asked me some stuff about my work, about my studies-when he said that that's all he wanted to know, if i'm OK, he urged me to go back to work.

i joked that i don't feel like working because i'm already talking to him, and he replied he feels a little lazy too and we talked for about 30 minutes-i was multitasking-typing on the side using my right hand, alternating with my left hand to use the mouse and donwload some files, etc. he's so busy, can't blame him but he promised to see me-not that soon but at least, before the year ends. i can't help but be happy when he said that several times-that he'll meet me and that he'll bring the books that he promised before to lend to me.

i know, i maybe only inlove with the idea of being inlove with him-but i miss him for who and what he is-i can talk with him about practically everything, nevermind that our age gap spans for about 2 decades-i never feel naive when talking to him-like what i used to feel when i'm attempting to talk to voldemort. he's one friend that i'm able to confide all my anxities, and how he really serves as my adviser for he really gives sound advices. i miss spending time with him because when i'm with him, i'm like a princess-he really takes care of me-what food i like to eat, where will i go next and he'll drive me to my destination after our meeting (if he has time, of course).

he convinces me to attend a friday event which he also plans to attend. i said i don't know yet because it will end too late already. he said, if he watches, he promised to drive me home...imagine the thought of spending with him the night traffic going to our faraway place...i felt giggly about it but i only said "bahala na." that's all i'm feeling now, so happy. i know, i'm hard-headed, that i maybe only inlove with the idea of being inlove with him-hell, i don't know. looking forward to a pre-Christmas meet with him.

posted by: lcorpuz at November 23, 2005 17:25 | link | comments |
affairs of the heart

25

i will be 25 tomorrow (read: twenteen-five, hehehe).

will post some thoughs about being 25---young, single, intelligent, and cute (hehehe).

already, i 'm getting my greetings from my friends: barleytots wished me to be contented, have peace of mind, and have a box of go nuts donuts (although he did not specify if box of 6 or a dozen or regular or the new go nuts lite).

lyn wished me to get married...yeah right. high school friend mitch wished me to continue with my writing and to be successful soon (please...).

for tomorrow, i intend to do the following: if not to hear Mass, go to UP Church and pray, pray, pray and reflect, reflect, and reflect read my new titles---unbearable lightness of being (hope i got the title right) and deception point by "da vinci code" author dan brown. sleep, sleep, sleep have dinner with mommy and little bros yuck-revise 2 stories, prepare january 2006 story lineup and sleep, sleep, sleep

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was hoping to celebrate my birthday with O but i gave up on that already. i spoke with him earlier regarding work---he called me because i need some things from him. he said he still has to finish his dues to me, and that he will devote his weekend to work on his dues. right. obviously, he forgot that it's my day tomorrow. oh well...jann arden's "insensitive" is now playing in my head---dedicated to O.

posted by: lcorpuz at November 11, 2005 16:50 | link | comments |
music, affairs of the heart, books

tama na, sobra na...tigilan na kasi...

O called me two Mondays ago only to ask a favor–to send to him via facsimile a story that was published in our magazine. I was pissed off because the number he gave me was busy. I texted him and asked for another number. He called me several times but I could not hear him. Until I got his call and asked “naririnig mo na ako?” sa inis ko, (I was proofreading that time kasi plus the fact that tumawag lang siya dahil may kailangan siya), I only gave him curt replies sa explanations niya. Hindi ko pinatagal ang usapan. I only made through the line after about 30 minutes. He only texted me after, “thanks a million. Take care…”. Hmph. Last Wednesday, I saw O in MRT station. Buti na lang na-stuck ako sa pila sa window na may stored value card. There, I saw him, in light blue long sleeves at black pants, very formal, handsome for me. Lumusot-lusot siya sa mahahabang pila. He was quite in a hurry, habang naglalakad kasi, patingin-tingin siya sa phone niya, sa pila ng tao. He did not see me, I was far from him–3 mahahabang pila ang nakapagitan sa namin. I was so happy that I saw him, as in!!! I texted him that I saw him. About 15 to 20 minutes na ang lumipas mula ng makapasok siya sa station, nakasakay na marahil, pero no reply from him. Hanggang it was my turn sa window, wala pa rin, disappointed na ako. Then, someone called me–friend ko pala. Nasa kabilang pila siya. He gestured that another friend was in the other line. Niyaya nila ako mag-dinner, sabi ko, bahala na. I waited for them inside the station. Teary-eyed na ako kasi no reply yet from O. Hanggang sa makapasok sila and I thanked them profusely dahil timing dating nila–I told my friend who called me (he knows what I’m going through with my feelings for O), he scolded me again, tigilan ko na raw kasi…another friend was only listening. Basta I thanked them because I had company to keep me sane all throughout the travel. Nag-round trip pa kami. I checked again my phone and O replied already! Hindi raw siya `yun, he joked and asked where am I. My friend told me not to reply anymore (obvious ako, kasi change mood talaga drama ko what with my impish smile), eh, matigas ulo ko, I replied, I’m still in the station, pasakay pa lang…he replied later that he’s on his way to meet a family member to watch basketball. Doon din dapat sa area na pupuntahan niya na `yun kami magdi-dinner. I told him that and asked if I can call him–may iko-consult kasi ako naman sa kanya. `Yun, hindi na siya nag-reply. Sad. But good thing my friends were with me during that time na down ako. I did not join them for dinner anymore, apart from the fact na gagabihin ako ng uwi, down pa ako because of O, sigh… Basta, what I hope now is to be with O before the 12th. Basta…

posted by: lcorpuz at November 10, 2005 15:42 | link | comments |
affairs of the heart

Happy Halloween - belated (photos to follow)

My senior university publication friends organized a Halloween party. We’re only 11 (or 12?) because friend’s condo is quite small to accommodate many of us. Still, it was a blast. Despite the fact that it was a last minute party (notorious kami sa mga short-notice na lakad, hehehe), we had fun. Tagal ko ring hindi na nakasasama sa kanila (hindi na nga raw ako core group, hmph). Despite the fact that I was still tired from Thursday night’s work, and umuwi lang ako ng bahay that Friday morning just to change, join ako, long weekend naman eh. Correct, umuwi na ako, together with some friends, Saturday morning na. Soon-to-wed friend bought fake cobwebs (weird, kulay green) with spiders, witch’s hat (na naglalagas ang attached purple hair), scary mask, and Halloween sound of horrors (hehe, Halloween na, horror pa). May candles din saka food, food galore. KFC original and spicy recipe, (which cooked rice we had to buy later that night, kasi si soon-to-wed friend bumili ng KFC bucket, walang rice!!! Pasaway), candies and chocolates (may mini Cadbury, Toblerone, Mentos, pochi, and local na flat tops and curly tops–mga hubad na curly tops na hinalo sa mga nakabalot na other chocolates at ayun nag-swimming sa jack-o-lantern basket, eww), bottles of wine, C2 (paborito ng bayan), San Mig light, at iba pa. Isa-isang nagdatingan ang mga tao. Kaming mga nauna, sa pamumuno ni soon-to-wed friend, plotted to scare the others. Every time may kakatok or may tumawag na papunta na sa condo, we turned off the light, lighted the candles, one had to wear the scary mask at siya ang magbubukas ng pinto sabay bungad sa bagong dating, “Sinong nanay mo?” (favorite line namin before pa, which I was reminded again last Friday). Hindi umeepekto `yung takot, ni magulat, kasi, dinig na dinig ang aming plano sa labas pa lang ng unit. Paano, kaunti pa lang ang occupants sa condo na `yun. But our leader was persistent. When A called and said she’s coming together with angel friend, he made it a career to scare A. Pasaway kami, hindi kami makakilos (I had to turn on and off the sound of horrors kasi nga masyadong maingay wala pa ang mga tatakutin), tawa lang kami ng tawa. Lights out na and the leader was insisting na pasok kami sa kuwarto para nga gulatin ang mga darating. Ayaw, hala, tawa lang ng tawa. Until A and angel friend arrived, may nanggulat na with matching prop na malaking payong sabay bukas nito. LOL! Walang effect, kasi nga dinig na dinig ang mga pigil na tawa and all. After all had their dinner, and with A’s prodding, kuwentuhan na–ng kakatakot. Angel friend was asked to share her scary story, which yun ang pinaka-scary sa lahat (put link here). I also shared mine (yung babae sa closet ng house, specifically sa room na tinuluyan namin. This happened when we were invited to tour the greater subic provinces. Nakita yung babae ng 2 may third eye sa grupo namin, hindi naman kami ginulo or what, pero eh, kahit na ano–nakatitig daw sa amin with her red eyes…) and `yun, habang inuubos na ni A ang mga chocolate, tuloy ang diskusyon–scary stories, doppelganger, astral projection, bilocation. Even sa kung sino talaga ang mga suspects sa Vizconde massacre, as based sa paranormal procedure (which I forgot kung ano) at kung bakit hindi tinatanggap ang paranormal procedures sa korte rito sa Pilipinas (abroad [eh, i'm not sure] accepted na `yun to determine sino nga ba talaga ang salarin lalo na sa murder cases). Soon-to-wed friend even called a friend who’s now in New York. `Di na ako magkukuwento rito, I mean, ewan, basta, minsan friend treat ko sa kanya, minsan hindi, iba kasi siya, as in…we even had tarot reading. General reading lang–ang reading sa akin, (kung tama ang pagkakatanda ko) don’t hurry about my success, it will come soon (please!!!); I have the ability to bring out the best in people and I best work in a team (naku ha?); may go signal ang mga plano ko (ano nga ba mga plano ko?), that I should balance work and play (oo na…). Ang iba nang past midnight na, nag-uwian na. I, carly, soon-to-wed couple ng barkada at ang may-ari ng condo, nagpa-morning na. Kahit breakfast na ng mga natira namin sa Halloween dinner, tuloy pa rin ang chika–si GMA, Harry Potter, at iba pa. Really, it was fun. Susunod na namin, Christmas party na. Yahoo!!!

posted by: lcorpuz at November 10, 2005 15:41 | link | comments |
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